Should I Write?

You can’t beat someone who never gives up. – Babe Ruth

Sorry for the hiatus on the blog, sane people. I was having an awful couple of months when my brain wanted to relapse on me and want to give birth to all the evil thoughts stored up there all at once, but that’s neither here nor there now. I’m all better, once again.

But you try living in this body that wants to take control and plan for world domination, it’s not fun. But hey, I am writing again. Still no nibbles from Hollywood or Literary agents for that matter; Hey, I’m still alive, what more could I want…. More. Haha!

But my friend Eddy, who messages me from Los Angeles; he’s a Screenwriter. He was telling me I might be Tagging, Categorising or changing my slug-line wrong. I’m not sure.

But even if I don’t change any of that, I wonder if in time if I will get to the position I would like to rest and write in peace in? Hopefully is the expectation but the nibbles are not there.

Worry, it’s such a sane feeling, I hate it!

But my racing thoughts do get the better of me sometimes, I worry when I write, will I still be writing for 20 views a time when I have written over 200 posts? Maybe I should be focusing on getting my writing into the right hands, go find myself a literary agent? You and I both know, they wouldn’t even consider us if we do not have a name so in essence, I am Scr*wed. So, in theory, we must create a name for ourselves, gain a huge following of readers or subscribers and become the greatest writer of all time. – Still nothing!

I have hope; I hope you do in you!

Maybe the drugs are wearing down my thoughts or perhaps they are wearing my skin and it’s the medication that is writing this. – Awkward!

I guess all I am saying is “Am I wasting my time doing this?” Should I be keeping my work for my dream job as a creative writer or the hope for literary agent to scope me out and sell my work to a TV network? Is that what I want? Probably… But as a human, I don’t really know what I want.

All I know is what I must do; keep writing, Alex!

So I cannot be writing for anyone if I’m not writing for myself first. I guess I will have to wait and see, I mean I know I will never run out of ideas so I think I will be here for a while, just like you.

Lost on the internet, trying to be someone in a place where no one cares. This feels like life!

Hang in there, don’t quit on yourself and your dreams shall chase you!

Keep those pens busy….

Alex