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My Personal Storm

I crawl into the corner; the shadows are where I live now. I take the thin corners of the shady sheet and wrap myself in their warmth; this is how I grow in the darkness. All alone again. All coloured pills, a kaleidoscope of new hope. I can feel my heart beat, another one, another bump and my chest will rip ribs open and explode my love all over this room. Baptise my thoughts, can you please keep my head under a little longer. My pen is the tungsten tongue of my brain; these epileptic scribbles say it all, what a mess. I try and etch my pain, writing out my wounds but all I end up doing is drawing blood.

I am trying to tip the scale into my favour, this wait is never over. I stand and I sit, claw at my azure veins, there is something hibernating beyond the blood, it is too much to bare. I revere my reverie but always reverse over my venerated vernacular. I stomp around in my own personal storm, the cold wind blows, this son sucks too.  Your eyes can save me, douse this page in excellent accelerant, take in a breath of oxygen, drop my English lit, now witness a man on fire. I am running, I am running, lightening all around me, strike me down within each strike of my pencil.

I’ve learnt from my wrongs, no teaching me,

I could be wonderful sun-god,

I’m living on a different frequency,

I’ve come from the skies,

Insane knowledge lives deep in me,

Tear from my eyes my indecency,

Primal instincts run free within the streets,

Disrupting the cosmos,

Falling deep-deep in love,

Corrupted from the loss,

Let my hope-star fall from above,

So I can pick up the cost.

I’m an animal, just like you,

I can close my eyes and time-travel,

The minds baffled as a bouncing ball,

I climb and grapple over my nightmares shows,

Time to pick up my pride and fight alone,

We don’t need words where we’re going!

So strip yourself of your clothes and fears,

And join me in planet bowling,

Manic self-loathing and frantic words woven,

I’m jamming up traffic when I magically etch my soul’s sins.

Either on land or water,

I force my own lamb to the slaughter,

The damage won’t stop here,

This is my penance,

A few more days,

A couple more lies,

And I can have my vengeance,

Upon the world, including family and friends.


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  1. helenaolwage

    You are a fantastic writer, do you know that? I can feel the pain while I read it. You know so well how to describe emotions.

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    1. alexander87writer

      I only write so I don’t forget. You should email me and maybe we can work on something dark and grimy together. 🫶🏻

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      1. helenaolwage

        I won’t forget that email.

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      2. helenaolwage

        Just don’t forget to write. I really enjoy it.

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      3. alexander87writer

        Almost every day, I promise 🫶🏻

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      4. helenaolwage

        I’m watching. Lol

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  2. helenaolwage

    Reblogged this on Dead & Buried.

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  3. martesivenus

    So Deep .


  4. Inner Peace

    Thank you for sharing such a raw and honest portrayal of the inner turmoil that many people face. Your words serve as a reminder that we are not alone in our struggles, and that there is always hope for redemption and healing.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. alexander87writer

      Thank you, IP. You have nailed my writing right on the head. I appreciate you taking the time to read. 🙏🏻

      Liked by 1 person

  5. pghjoseph

    Fantastic blog post!

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  6. Cosmic Being

    This is exquisitely powerful. Well done.

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    1. alexander87writer

      Thank you. I love your blog 🙏🏻👍🏻


      1. Cosmic Being

        Oh thanks! I’m trying to update my about me page lol but can’t think of anything to say about myself! I peeked around your blog and I am astounded by the fluidity of your posts. Like me, you have a lot to say about everything. I love that! Nice to meet you bro

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      2. alexander87writer

        Pleasure is all mine bro and if you ever need help with anything, writing, ideas or your about page, just get in touch. 👍🏻

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  7. Cosmic Being

    Thanks, I think I got it. Finally updated it. Maybe reading your stuff will inspire me to write some new material!

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    1. alexander87writer

      Anything that’ll help you brother


  8. Cosmic Being

    Sister lol

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    1. alexander87writer

      I am so sorry lol here’s my email if you ever want to bounce ideas off one another


      1. Cosmic Being

        No worries. Aw thank you


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