Should I Write?

You can’t beat someone who never gives up. – Babe Ruth

Sorry for the hiatus on the blog, sane people. I was having an awful couple of months when my brain wanted to relapse on me and want to give birth to all the evil thoughts stored up there all at once, but that’s neither here nor there now. I’m all better, once again.

But you try living in this body that wants to take control and plan for world domination, it’s not fun. But hey, I am writing again. Still no nibbles from Hollywood or Literary agents for that matter; Hey, I’m still alive, what more could I want…. More. Haha!

But my friend Eddy, who messages me from Los Angeles; he’s a Screenwriter. He was telling me I might be Tagging, Categorising or changing my slug-line wrong. I’m not sure.

But even if I don’t change any of that, I wonder if in time if I will get to the position I would like to rest and write in peace in? Hopefully is the expectation but the nibbles are not there.

Worry, it’s such a sane feeling, I hate it!

But my racing thoughts do get the better of me sometimes, I worry when I write, will I still be writing for 20 views a time when I have written over 200 posts? Maybe I should be focusing on getting my writing into the right hands, go find myself a literary agent? You and I both know, they wouldn’t even consider us if we do not have a name so in essence, I am Scr*wed. So, in theory, we must create a name for ourselves, gain a huge following of readers or subscribers and become the greatest writer of all time. – Still nothing!

I have hope; I hope you do in you!

Maybe the drugs are wearing down my thoughts or perhaps they are wearing my skin and it’s the medication that is writing this. – Awkward!

I guess all I am saying is “Am I wasting my time doing this?” Should I be keeping my work for my dream job as a creative writer or the hope for literary agent to scope me out and sell my work to a TV network? Is that what I want? Probably… But as a human, I don’t really know what I want.

All I know is what I must do; keep writing, Alex!

So I cannot be writing for anyone if I’m not writing for myself first. I guess I will have to wait and see, I mean I know I will never run out of ideas so I think I will be here for a while, just like you.

Lost on the internet, trying to be someone in a place where no one cares. This feels like life!

Hang in there, don’t quit on yourself and your dreams shall chase you!

Keep those pens busy….

Alex

Wordless

I treasure my secrets so this world cannot find me. An Xmarks the spot; this is why I write when I am cross. I will wait here for you, I will always be here. Keep digging the dirt from on top of me; you will never uncover my truth. Set sail for a better life, towards the horizon line into the sunset. I cannot stand these calm oceans any longer; I am falling from the edge of the world’s ledge.

This split personality is splitting me in half, personally I am a person of pure fear, I don’t get along with many people, I blow up if you’re here. How would it be if I were famous? That would never happen; if I had a working brain this nameless delinquent would be too dangerous. I forecast more contrast, the light from my eyes have been snatched by a bad-man, gone fast. These naked trees vein over my skies, Alex, stop looking up to those stars unless they’re exploding!

Life is lawless,

Jobless with no benefits,

Hopeless and can’t get to grips,

With this whole mess I am living in.

Welfare will recur,

So will their slurring eyes,

The greatest loser,

It takes time to get use to,

We’re all living in this warfare,

Don’t feed this animal, tattooed,

Check out my new head-ware.

Ill-starred since my life started,

Killed my heart for my writing passion,

My time machine has broken down,

I am reliving my remembered past in a passing glimpse,

I’m turning off my humanity switch,

Hey, these hits happen.

Down this wormhole I go,

Clicking together my heels,

There’s no place like home,

Falling on my face, comatose,

You’re now watch an apocalypse taking place,

I’m diving in headfirst, hold your nose,

I am swimming in insane.

These words play no part in my everyday vocabulary, my existence is a horrific ordeal; ideally I am lost for words. Don’t wake me up from this nightmare; my everyday life is much worse. What can I write to have you on my side? See these horrors I never borrowed in this heart lives only hollowed morals.

The Rambling’s Of An Unsuccessful Writer

Please read it all, it will make sense at the end – Thank you.

Writing is my religion, paper is my temple; now kneel before my God, pen! Your words are senseless, copy – copy – copy – copy. The rules of this writing game, is to take what others have done and rewrite it; what idea is your own though?

Now I am one of those writers, afraid to approach a Publishing House or a Literary Agency because I am fearful of what others will think about my work. I have thoughts pressing against my brow most days, so this blog is a lifeline to the writing world for me. I don’t consider my writing to be good, great or phenomenal, but how I see it is my words do their job, there are thousands of writers out there, with fancy educations and warped minds better than mine who deserve it more than me, so I don’t mind waiting a couple of decades.

I have read so much and in doing so have character built myself; I know who I am now. Yes, I am a little fuzzy on the details and road journey, but I am here with a pen or keyboard, whatever writing tool is available. But I know one thing, I have my own mind!! I do not see Vampires falling in love with humans and thinking, I can have a better take on this story; I MUST WRITE IT AND IT SHALL BE BETTER!! That’s a Stephanie Myers thing, she made that bigger than most orgy stories and it has gone down in history. A clever lady she is, tapping into a market and going for gold. Well done, little Miss!

See for me, I like The Minds Narrative, for example…

“Should I write now? Not too sure Alex, I mean you haven’t slept in thirty-six hours, dawg. Get some shut-eye and blast back on that page, dude. I care about you man, don’t want to see you wander off away back onto the darkland. Write it and they shall come!! You’re a good guy; show them later what’s really inside of your heart. Now get to bed, you ugly fool.” 

Yes, I talk to myself in my head and it is very therapeutic to know I am on my own wave length. But I am getting off topic. Let’s get back to the writing aspect.

If you want to be taken serious, you are going to have to amaze the world. Show them something different. But it has to RELATE to people’s lives.

Whether it is dark and emo = Twilight

Sassy and sexy = Any Jackie Collins novel

And so on and so forth. You need your niche! Find it and utilize it to the fullest extent of you.

See mine is dark humour wrapped in a cocoon of pain with a silver lining showing it face every once in a while. My niche.

But I am not saying everyone who types or write is a terrible writer; know where your writing wants to go. If you want the big writing contract (Like most of us do.) Write for it. If you just want to write for general purpose, to ease stress or bare a little piece of your soul, then show it. But know where you want to go.

PUT IN THE WORK NOW AND LIFE WILL BE LESS LIKE WORK!!!

Some days I don’t even know what I am doing, should I be giving up this pursuit of a lit agent? I mean I have the tools and ideas, but I have the urging feeling when I think about doing it, yelling DON’T DO IT, STEP AWAY FROM THE SEND BUTTON!!!! And I don’t, I scurry back off into my corner to scribble all the while people could be taking my dreams.

I AM SUCH A HYPOCRITE!!!

I won’t even follow my own writing advice.

I am lost, lost in a world full of everyone else. But to be honest, I can write a good game, but some days I am not even playing; hence the blog a broken writer.

I’m not sure what I am doing here, I write and people tell me my work is wonderful or awful, I don’t mind but I am just think about my end game, the final trick I will magically reveal.

I’m just babbling now!

I think my blog is broken, I do wish for more views on my wordpress blog but I get I can’t have it all. I can have the skill but no eyes to read it. And if that is my niche in the writing industry for me, I guess I will have to take it.

And another thing, I am getting weird emails from people who are being really abusive; friends just say is jealousy. But these online bullies might be right; I might be a poop sack or deserves theirs pens jamming in my breathing tube. (It’s called a windpipe, my friend; if you had picked up a book you would have known that.) And some other emails are people saying I have stolen their thunder or some S*&t like that. If I have I am sorry!!!

I’m not a bad guy, only confused about this whole writing life and I would like to strive for more, but that slapped hand keeps brushing on by. I did have a dream the other night, where I did get a Literary Agent and she was so fine. Hey, maybe I could write about that???

But I would like to state that my blog has almost reached that glorious number of 100^TH POST!!! WHOOP WHOOP!!!! (Man, there are a lot of exclamation marks in this blog post!)

And I couldn’t have done it without you peeps. Some of you have read my work; THANKS GUYS! And some have just clicked the like button, thanks, I think!

So today I am going to Watch season 1 and 2 of New Girl, because this show is fantastic and I am kind of addicted to it. I know I am a guy, I have girly TV fetish, get over yourselves.

If you have read this, I usually know; because you comment about my work and all my goofy wording. So have a nice day!

Keep that pen busy or just work towards your goals in life.

Smell the roses too. It’s good to just stop from the hustle of life.

I’ve been your rambling writer.

Alexander Kennedy

My Best Day For Likes On WordPress

Today has been a busy day, finished my fifth novel and started my sixth. Wrote and uploaded four new blog posts and in the middle of all that I took the kids to the park, cooked, cleaned.

But it’s all thank to all of you that I am sitting here with a smile in my face. Because of you, everyday I take a step or two to my goals in life.

If you keep reading it, I’ll keep writing it.

Thank you, again. Have a nice night. 😁🙏🏻

I Am The Broken One

I’m the type of kid who doesn’t belong here; I stick out like a sore thumb. They tried to fix me, didn’t work; now they are biting nails around me waiting to see how much I can stamp on these pages before I snap off for good. How much is enough to call enough is enough? I couldn’t control my past but observe how I sculpt my future. Fire-red is the new Blackness, these pages will go up in smoke. These pages are my playground.

This world didn’t break me, I was already broken. And the brick that was thrown through my window, I am holding onto as if it was my dream, because when the time is right, I will make this world swallow what people have done to me. Looks like The Evilness has raised its ugly face again, it’s all only bravado, I just caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror.  My sane-self is trapped on the other side, he sees all; tonight I will be your host and he will be my hostage. Welcome to the Alexander Kennedy Show!

He’s going cuckoo again! Doctors stop the treatment, it’s the wrong diagnosis; I merely write better when I have my head in the clouds. Well, it does give new meaning to higher functioning!

My brain is an intricate web; make sure you don’t get tangled in the words I weave. I’m the type of writer who pretends he’s a spider, for one purpose; to spin the peace symbol around before I chomp down on a fly girl. As a writer you must know I can kill with only finger and a thumb. They say one man’s delusions are another man’s faith. Do not worry; I have faith within my delusions.

I have to beat life because I can’t cheat this death,

I say I feel fine but my heart has raised secrets,

I may be in deep rhyme as I’m sitting at my desk,

As every night I die because my mind can regress.

I’m morphing into a monster,

Everybody stand back!

This horror-show I’m applaud in,

Know I have the quickest-hand on this pad,

Stand back!!

i just wanted to become a writer … i’m sorry

I Received Another Rejection Letter From a Literary Agent

I received another rejection letter again from a literary agency… Hey, we all go through it as writers, at one point or another.

Their exact (Key) Words they sent were:

1. We are sorry to inform you…

(Always a no-brainer where this is going)

1. Not currently seeking out new clients at this time…

(Erm… Okay)

1. We enjoyed your stories but…

(…no words…)

1. All the best in your future representation…

(Worth a shot…)

We can’t always hit a bull’s-eye on the first shot. I was told by another writer when I first started writing “You will get nowhere in this industry if you don’t have a name people remember.”

I guess he was right; without exposure I will not get anywhere in this writers life.

So I came up with a plan, a plan that would boggle the minds of most… I shall write and lie in wait.

What more can I do?

If I am to write all that overcomes my pretty-little head and share it upon my blog, sooner than later the readers and views will come, which in turn could eventually bring forth the right eyes for my work. (That’s innuendo for an agent.)

So instead of writing and passing out your work to Lit-Agencies who will NOT cloak you within their name, write all you can through a blogging portal and bring the agents to you.

You have waited this long to be a great writer; why not wait a little longer?

Look at my blog;

• One year ago I was a no one. Now I am less than that…
• Today my blogs views have increased almost 400% within the last 3 months.
• With the ten new wordpress followers a day, comes ten new readers.

We as writers will always find a way to satisfy our urges to scribble.

Find your own and be comfortable with it and I bet my soul, respect, a name and your dreams will soon venture your way.

Write!

Keep your pens busy!

I will be posting another post for you all tomorra’

Alexander Kennedy – Creative Writer.

Writers Worldwide Unite!

As a writer I do believe in magic. But that may just be my medication (No… Stop laughing, I am on medication.) But I ultimately love what words do for me and also what they can do for you. They can have you dreaming about one itsy-bitsy scene for hours or have you turn the pages because you can’t read anymore gore… Yuck!

But it is our job, no wait, our RIGHT to explore the recesses of our dark abysses and pluck the words out and form them into entertainment. Now I have been writing for about ten years, now I am back in the asylum (I’m getting off topic.) But I have seen wonders in words that deliver me to another world; I have seen the littlest piece of fiction woven into a work of a triumphant masterpiece and seen people start-up a blog and write a piece of fiction that one but me loves…. I read anything and everything, my curse I call it.

But we as writers are the creators, some better than others, I am sorry but that is life. Either you have it or you don’t; but don’t stop there “Someday” is within your cards, kid.

I am a different writer from you all; neither money nor fame keeps me coming back for more; only the mere thrill of shockvalue does it for me. (Better than sex…. well almost better.) But I would like to tell you a saying my mother always told me when I strived for greatness….. Are you ready?

What is not for you will not go by you.

Simple…. If this is the path you have chosen (Well-Done, Kid!) carry on, there are only two possibilities; either you make it or you don’t; but no one can say you didn’t try. Now I am here to say I HAVE GOT YOUR BACKS! I will try my hardest to help you before I help myself, another curse of mine…. (I’m thinking I have a voodoo doll somewhere.) But PLEASE don’t lay your pen down just yet. All it takes is for one literary agent to see your work and to put you on the top of that list and snatch you from reality and tell you to live, breath and write… Whatever it is you write.

Now if you are a real writer, you are very sceptical about your own words… DON’T BE! Forget what people say or read. You are a writer, you don’t have to read what they say if it is anything negative.

And don’t be a fool and quit. Look at me, I am 25 years young, I have dreams of becoming a writer and no one really knows who I am by name or face only by certain songs and articles I have written and into the bargain I am a mental patient (Non-Practising) but I have a knack or a fire to force my will to breakdown the writers-blocked wall, crumble it and from the mortar make my own world. That’s what makes me a writer. Keep going your story doesn’t end here.

Now I know we are vast, but numbers will dwindle (They always do.) And the only people left standing or writing will be me and you.

This has been a psychotic announcement to sane people worldwide.

Keep your pens busy….

Alex.

From Me To My Writer Friends

Scum & Scummer

For my Writing Friends

I stand now; I stand a man with no future as of yet, twiddled by his past and troubled by his condition but still I stand toe to toe – nose to nose with this epic-fail named my life. Yes it may have a detrimental state on my being but in life’s chess game I can hold all of its weight because they call me Alexander the Great Writer.

I am different writer from all of you, which inevitably makes me stand away from the pack, I’m a lone wolf, you hunt your prey, I am more of a devilish creature; I wait for my food to come to me. Decipher that how you will. But I have watched and seen so many of a’writer creep up to a literary agent with a piece of work or a manuscript, shaking with so much possibility for a publication or perhaps a good phrase. But —

“Excuse me; this is my manuscript, its call Dead on The Water. It’s a psych-thriller novel. Everyone who reads it says it is awesome. Could you give it a read, please?” The writer stammers as he shudders in his boots.

“Sure thing, it will be the first thing I will do right after I do this other thing I have to do.” The clips of the high-heels simmer away through the double doors of the agency.

And what a shock! Nothing comes to pass.

—

But I devised a plan. One that will be more treacherous and longwinded than your way, I will write a blog! Write everything I can, whenever I can. Gain views upon my work through the blog and social networks. And in time the RIGHT-EYES will stumble upon my words. – The idea doesn’t seem that great when I write it down like that, but if I do my own thing I should get to where I am going through gaining attention. Oh yeah, for all you wannabe writers. A blog can be used as a portfolio for your work, so anyone wanting to know what you write like before contacting you, can view it, so write your best pieces. It’s a lot like putting on your party-dress and attending a ball, you want to be the best piece of polished writing-skirt at that place, so you get lucky and go home for the best damn night of your life. I think I got carried away with that part, I’m back now.

Now my talent or skill; to me it resembles a ship on the ocean, it could be calm and controlled on the water but like the weather, within an instant it can turn harsh, deadly and challenging and then there’s days of waves of poetry; but you have to look out for them.

These words I give birth to can conquer all forever, whatever the weather whether I wither or whether I turn killer and send this world into global terror, I shall. Whether I use poetic stories or general stories to get my emotion pen across, I will, by any means necessary. I may be a female pin-up centrefold and my words may be censored gold, but the reality is my reality is something I can never truly hold, my job sucks and my bed is never cold, fact.

But I write everything and when I say everything, I write everything on my mind at the time I am thinking about writing. But in a way that is educational for other writers due to my ability to play with the words. Also in diary fashion so people just wanting to pop in and check out if other people are having bad days just like them. And then you have my dark side that gravitationally yanks people in to show my mental illness and how I write about it, along with the why strapped to it and the ferocious way I chuck words around that they could never even muster to think about using.

Take away this hurt, please. It feels as if my brains will flower-blossom from beneath my skull, splitting my life into death. I am crumpled on the floor taking this beating from myself because I must; squish my eyes shut so no tears are spilt.

These med-kits have no instant direct-hit on these chugging headaches.

You see I write everything I see. I could be watching TV and everything the characters on-screen are acting I am writing EVERYTHING that I see. –

Davis stretches through the doorway, gun handle strangled, index finger at the ready to twitch. His eyes mean business with his bad acting; but the bad guy is going down. The shadow of a silhouette passes the kitchen door; Davis barely caught it in his peripheral vision.

So on and so forth. Hey, you can always watch what I was writing.

But it is a great way to further your talent. Watch something and rhyme off quickly and efficiently, so when it comes to tackling you work, it’s not only a great piece of writing it’s also a piece of pi$$ to do it.

Stay shiny!

Keep those pens busy!

Alex – The great writer, it’s got a cool ring to it.